Ink-Stained Scribe

Scribe's (Not) Going Back to School

Freeeeeddoooooooom!
Since my recent freedom from the old day job, I've been trying to find part-time work. This is going about as well as it did before, which is to say, it's not going that well. The economy is lousy and there's really not much out there for someone with an English BA and experience in teaching ESL.

After talking with my parents and fairly assessing the likelihood that I will go from dead-end job to dead-end job, never climbing above the poverty level, **I've decided to go back to school for a masters degree in communications, a field I have some familiarity with and--with the rise of New Media popularity--a good amount of interest in.

Of course, I'll have to get a job while I get my masters, or at least until I can satisfy all the requirements to go back full time if that's the route I decide to take. I'm still in the early stages of planning this, so I can't say much more on the subject other than: "Have GRE book. Will study."

Besides school and work, I've got several writing goals and plans this year. These are what's coming down the writing pipeline for me in 2013, though my situation is somewhat transient and these are subject to change pending the manifestation of school/work:


*My short story, The Incident of the Clockwork Mikoshi, will appear in the Ministry of Peculiar Occurrences world in some exciting fashion, which I will reveal a bit later.

*I will be writing bi-monthly fantasy book reviews for Orson Scott Card's Intergalactic Medicine Show magazine, the first will be out April 8th!

*I'll be releasing a YA Paranormal Comedy novelette called BULL-RUSHING THE GHOST via podcast and ebook, likely some time in July.

*I plan to finish the first draft of the outlined novel, HERETIC'S RESONANCE, by the end of October.

*If I somehow manage to pull all that off, I'll either write a novella about a side-character during NaNoWriMo or I'll get to work on the third draft of HELLHOUND, which needs to be rewritten from the ground up to work. Maybe a few old scenes can be saved.

With all this excitement, there's also Pendragon Variety Podcast, which has started recording again and is making some headway with the first issue of the Literary Magazine. I'm also looking forward to auditioning for some paid voice recording work with ACX, an Audible affiliate. Now wouldn't THAT be a way to pay my way through school?

Did I mention I was a bit overcommitted? Because I'm also doing some more voice work and attending or speaking at at least four more conventions this year.

Needless to say, everything but the writing and school will have to slow down once I find a job, but for now, I'm steering my life down a path I'm excited about.

What are your plans this year?

**I have decided not to go back to school, actually, but to try to support myself with writing, voice-acting, and part-time work. Yes, I am crazy, but I have to start treating myself like a pro and do what makes me happy.

Goals for 2013

Photo by Markybon
Last night, I went to sleep hoping I could avoid the icy drive in the morning and sit at home with my work laptop, processing documents in my pajamas. Alas, the expected snow did some half-hearted acrobatics and failed to stick the landing, and by the time I slid onto my porch it was little more than a scraping of white icing on the roof next door. I was driving to work after all.

I live in the South, where asking people to drive in snow and ice is like asking a cat to walk when he's wearing a collar for the first time--a combination of tragic and hilarious. I don't claim to be much better, though I do know which way to turn the wheel if I start to slide. I wasn't surprised when, halfway to work, traffic slowed to a crawl.

I spotted flashing lights, but the smell of gasoline was the first indicator this wasn't the usual fender-bender. When my lane stopped, I glanced between the inching cars. The blackened husk of an overturned car steamed from inside a ring of emergency vehicles by the side of the road. There was no fire anymore, but it was clear the car had been blazing not too long before, though the shape of it was mostly intact. I hoped the driver and any passengers had made it out.

It was suddenly strange to think my largest concern not ten hours before was whether I could stay in my pajamas. Someone else has lost a car, possibly lost a love one; my day-to-day concerns can't compare to that. What if it had been me in that car? Would I be satisfied with my last petty concerns? Everything changes in an instant.

That sobering understanding got me thinking. I need to improve my way of living, because I don't want to have any regrets should my instant come. That may seem morbid to some, but when you're unhappy with how things stand in your life, the thought of not having the opportunity to change it is a bitter but strong motivation.


2012 saw two of the worst creative crashes I've ever had, brought on by my inability to adjust to a demanding work schedule and maintain a level of creativity I was happy with. I bit off more than I could chew, and I choked on it. Twice.

I began to doubt my ability to write well enough, revise fast enough, be organized enough to ever publish. I warred against a self-image no longer reflected in the 35 lbs I gained since leaving Japan or the skin problems I'd never had as a teen. I was too tired to write when I got home, but too busy trying to write to take care of myself or contribute to the chores at home consistently, which made me feel like a wretched slob.

I started personal training. It went well for a few months. I started Fit-2-Write. We managed three episodes before I hit my first crash.

I was scheduling every part of my day down to my two 15-minute breaks at work. I was doing two personal training lessons a week after work, D&D on a third, and trying to edit and post two podcasts. Also, I went to StellarCon, ConCarolinas, Sammy's wedding, and BaltiCon all before May. Saturday mornings, I was taking a class on Google+ with Cat Rambo. I was trying to revise the first 100 pages of The Mark if Flight, write a short story, read and comment on two short stories a week, update my blog, and plan out my next book and the revisions for HELLHOUND.

Then this happened: Do You Want to Do My Laundry?

Despite the playful tone, this post was coming on the back of a serious meltdown after a couple of major disappointments. I felt like I would never "get it together". I still feel like that.

I dropped everything, and when I'd finally stopped crying log enough to look at the detritus at my feet, I had no idea how to pick it all back up again. I'd latch onto something, wade a couple feet through the rest, and drop it again. I couldn't let go of any of it, but I couldn't figure out how to clean the mess of my creative life without shoving it all to the curb.

It was tough to fish out the things that mattered to me the most, and I felt unspeakably guilty for letting the others rest.

At the same time, 2012 was a year of many steps forward: I gained what felt like a whole new world of friends after meeting the other folks in the podcasting community face-to-face at BaltiCon. I hammered out two short stories, a novelette, the first six chapters of a new book, and yet another opening for The Mark of Flight, which is now beginning to resemble something like a pretty good book. I made a carved leather hat that actually looked like what I had in mind. I asked to be on panels at StellarCon and BaltiCon and was accepted. I was invited to attend and speak at New Media Expo. I took a couple of trips by myself and with friends, just because. I started kayaking again, bought a bike, and got a new car that makes me super happy.

That said, I refuse to have another year where the lows are as low as 2012's. So I did some soul-searching and tried to figure out what goals I could make this year that would help me live with fewer regrets. I'll split them up into personal and creative.

2013 GOALS

Personal

  • Get healthier - exercise, eat better, figure out the energy situation, ride my bike, relax
  • Go out and do things. With other human beings. And not just because I can use it in a story someday.
  • Spend more time outside doing things I enjoy, like biking or kayaking or camping.
  • Do more to maintain the apartment
  • Consistently pay all bills on time
  • Pay down credit card
  • Fill the well
  • Volunteer




Creative

  • Worry less about 'making it'
  • Chill, before this shit gives me heart problems
  • Finish first draft of Heretic's Resonance
  • Get Pendragon Variety - Issue#1 released
  • Make Season 2 of Pendragon Variety
  • Keep making friends who are awesome, supportive, and inspiring
  • Query MoF
  • Read more
I don't know if I'll be able to do all these things, and I'm almost certain I won't do them consistently. There's a certain measure of cognitive dissonance to pursuing your dreams during an economic recession. Last year it was cacophony. This year, we're gonna try to find the right key.

What are your personal and creative goals for 2013? Did you suffer any setbacks or disappointments last year? What improvements do you want to make?

Pending Punishments and Goals for June


Just here to let you guys know that I have failed to complete the goals I set out for myself this month as well.

Now, I think I have some pretty good excuses for failing to meet them, but I'm not going to use those as a reason to get out of a punishment. My goals were thus:

  1. Finish writing the new scene for "The Mark of Flight"   (90%)
  2. Finish the first two lessons of "How to Revise Your Novel" with HELLHOUND  (60%)
  3. Write at least three more blog-posts (100%)
  4. Successfully move into new apartment (100%)--well, insofar as I now have a key and some boxes. I can't technically "move in" until the first anyway.

Also, the Twilight Punishment video is in the process of being edited. Yes, I completed the punishment, and it was painful, but not quite as painful as anticipated (team Jacob!). I actually ended up watching the Riff-Trax version of the third one with a friend while working on costumes for Animazement. I hated Windows Live Movie Maker so much I downloaded the far superior Windows Movie Maker of old to do all my editing. I'm going to make the completion of that video one of my goals for June.

SO THE PUNISHMENT.

I must do a cover of Rebecca Black's  Friday, complete with crappy music-video and choreography. I will probably need to recruit a few brave individuals to be my "homies". Corinna has generously offered to be my rapper, and Rachel will be her video-ho, so I'm looking forward to that.

OKAY, so my goals for June are as follows:


  1. Finish at least 3 lessons of "How to Revise Your Novel" with HELLHOUND.
  2. Write at least one blog post per week.
  3. Attend two writing club meetings
  4. Write at least ONE Flash Friday
I'm currently taking suggestions for punishments, so if you have any ideas, write them in the comments!


*Edit:


I just found this online. My suggestion for myself is that I have to do this makeup, including the mustache, and go somewhere public for one hour, and work on one of my failed goals. Vote on your favorite of the suggestions in the comments, or vote for the Old Age 
Makeup.


Goals and Punishment for May

Last month I failed to meet my goals, but I'm going to give it the good college try this month. In case you're wondering, I have already watched "New Moon" and am currently in the process of editing the video. Team Jacob!

So, without further ado...

MAY 2011 GOALS

  • Finish writing the new scene for "The Mark of Flight"
  • Finish the first two lessons of "How to Revise Your Novel" with HELLHOUND
  • Write at least three more blog-posts
  • successfully move into new apartment
Now, I know what you guys are all waiting for, and that's the punishment. So here it is:

If I fail to meet my goals this May, I will do a cover of Rebecca Black's "Friday", complete with dance choreography and costume.

If you don't know what I'm talking about, click the video below, take two Tylenol, and call me in the morning.




And it will be in my head for a year. *shudder*

If I succeed in my goals, however, I will do a spoof of "Friday" called "Monday":


It's Monday, Monday, gotta work hard on Monday
Everybody's wishing it was still the weekend
It's Monday, Monday, gotta chug my McCafe
Cause I've got bags under my eyes like they are packin'

If you have any further suggestions for my punishment, please leave them in the comments!

Goals and Punishment for April

I'm sorry for not posting last week, but things have been heating up around here both literally and figuratively, and it's been difficult to fit everything in. I may, however, have something interesting for you guys in a few days.

In lieu of some sort of discovery analysis, today I want to outline my goals for the month of April.


1. Finish the bulk rewrites for the new segments of "The Mark of Flight"
        -2 scenes, + continuity pass
2. Revise Query letter
3. Do at least the first lesson of Holly Lisle's "How to Revise Your Novel" on HELLHOUND.

And if I FAIL to complete these tasks, my punishment is as follows:

I must watch the second Twilight film from start to finish with the following rules:

  • I cannot mute the sound
  • I must give the movie my full attention
  • I must film myself watching, and produce a video of the results, to be uploaded and displayed on the Word-Accountable Blog.
Now, I read the first Twilight book and watched the first Twilight movie. I have neither read nor seen anything further, though I've heard quite a bit of what happens. I don't think just watching me grimace at the screen would be very entertaining, so I've decided that--if I have to do this punishment--it's going to be a drinking game.

Due to the things I decided to choose as my drinking-cues, Raven has warned me to drink nothing more alcoholic than Smirnoff.

I MUST DRINK
  1. Each time Taylor Lautner is shirtless
  2. Each time I don't believe Robert Pattinson's American accent.
  3. Each time Bella's creeper radar appears to be broken beyond repair.
  4. Each time there's a Vampire/Werewolf fight.
Leave suggestions for further drinking rules in the comments, and wish me luck in completing my tasks.

Do Daily Word-Count Goals Hurt Your Writing?

Last year, a writer friend named Munsi wrote one story a day for an entire year.

Boy is mad as a gong farmer, if you ask me, but I was inspired, so here goes.

At the beginning of the year, I set myself a daily word-count goal of 500 words a day, six days a week, or the equivalent of 3,000 words per week. It's not much more than two pages a day, which I thought was fair enough, given that I was working 40 hours every week, with an additional 10 hours of driving on top of that. I didn't want to discourage myself with a goal I couldn't meet, so I set the bar lower than I thought I could achieve.

After two weeks, I had consistently hit the weekly goal, but there was a problem: I still wasn't writing every day, and what I was writing wasn't very good.

I came to the realization that my daily word-count goal was not too much for me to handle--it was actually too little.

The writing process is different for everyone, and it changes for me depending on the story. I can drop into just about any part of THE MARKMASTERS TRILOGY by reading the previous paragraph, but it takes me couple pages to warm up to HELLHOUND, which is still an infant story compared to the 9-year-toil that has been MM3. At the moment, I'm working on HELLHOUND, so getting back into the story takes me a good fifteen minutes. Fifteen minutes during which I can have no interruptions, including those I make myself.

At first, I tried to write 500 words every day, even days when I was dead tired. I would sit down and scowl and bang out 543 words and call it a night. The next day, I would do the same thing. The result was a single scene in which the writing was disjointed and the characters' moods veered drastically.

It stopped being worth making myself write every day just to get 500 measly little words I'd probably end up erasing, especially when I could spend 15 minutes picking up the threads tomorrow and write 1000 instead. :D (<--The face I make when I can rationalize procrastinating.)

Then I realized something.

I hate spreading out work. If you read my post about pressure, you already know that I never started on papers until the deadline was imminent. Part of that is because I hate spreading the work out. I'm all for outlining. I'm all for portioning things out in chunks that make sense, but I need to really throw myself into it. I fail at organized spurts the same way I fail at naps (<--which is like failing at life, but on a first-grade level).

In short, I am a marathoner (<--like hot-stuff over here).

Why should I expend the energy it takes to get into a piece for a short spat of work, when I could work more, get better cohesion, and feel much less cranky about writing by doing more in a single sitting. I like knowing that, when I sit down to write, I'm going to accomplish something big.


I decided to kick the daily-word-count goal out like I was Jayne and word-count was tact and discretion and set a weekly goal that was higher than my current pace of 40,000 words.

So, in keeping with my pressure and accountability strategy, I told Raven that I would write 5,000 words by the following Sunday. She stipulated that, if I didn't, I had to buy her dinner.

Well, sorry, Raven. I was the early bird this time. No food for you, because I GOT THE WORd-count. <--FAIL (But also win.)

I wrote 5,500 words in a weekend. The following week, I wrote over 10,000. And this week?

I'm going to FINISH HELLHOUND (or there will be dire consequences).

So here's my suggestion. As my friend Shauna often says, it's only worth what you paid for (which is nothing):

Make sure your word-count goals reflect the kind of writer you are.

If you're a marathoner, like me, set your goals over the course of a week.

If you're a sprinter, set the word-count goal at shorter intervals.

So here's my question to you: Are you a marathoner or a sprinter? Have you ever found yourself in a slump because of low expectations? What kind of word-count goals do you set for yourself?